Both my dietitian and my psychologist keep pushing me to let them speak to my mom about getting me evaluated and on medication by a psychiatrist. But I just cant, not after how she reacted last time, she doesnt understand. she thinks my being unhappy has to do with vitamin deficiency, fucking vitamins is what she thinks is causing me to be depressed.

the worst part is that I want to go so badly, more than anything in the world. finally  ill have a name for my crazy and pills that might make my day bearable. but I promised after the last time I talked to her never to bring it  up again. I can go through that again.

If only I was 18 I could go without her even knowing, but thats still 4months away.

I dont know what to do with my life and im losing it. this is driving me crazy.